redoute & nearly wild

redoute & nearly wild

Saturday, July 21, 2012

random thoughts from a dark room

About all you can do in a flat out position is let your mind wander. She dims the lights, more so she can see the screen than for my comfort, I think.

I hope for a nap. No coffee no water 7am is unreasonable punishment.

I’m not used to being treated like a customer rather than a nuisance. I got a phone call yesterday, asking me which way I wanted something done, rather than someone just making a decision that I was going to pay for.

The goo starts out warm, but quickly turns cold.

Will I ever fly again? Do I care if I do or don’t? Used to be, one of them would call and let me hitch a ride to anywhere they were going.  C501 to PA32 to C172, didn’t matter to me. Miss that.

I ask a few questions about how the machine works, but I’m too tired to keep the conversation going for long.

Egg rolls. As soon as I get out of here, I need to find egg rolls. I’m starving and thirsty. No-fat dinner, she said. I probably overdid that.

Why am I here?

Bad guys should be made to wear rat masks so they can be identified immediately, rather than years later, too late.

I’m close to dozing off, when she interrupts….deep breath….hold it…..breathe.

Bacon.
Or pizza.
One shouldn’t crave things like that at 7am.

….beep…beep…beep….the shutter of her “camera” sounds like a Geiger counter, or a bomb detector. I guess, in a way, that’s what it is.

Is “grown man” an oxymoron? One in particular, once filled up with liquid courage, becomes pettier than a room full of 14 year old schoolgirls. Does he regret what he does at midnight, when he wakes up the next morning? Or does he even remember?

“You’re almost done.”

I need to go somewhere. Again, I wish I could fly away, with a pilot to take me, get out of this hellish weather that has no end, even just for a day. Michigan. As far north as you can get. One day. Too much to ask, I suppose.

“Roll to the side now, honey.”

If they spent half as much time tending to their own business as they do tending mine, their business wouldn’t be failing.

I know she sees it, but she can’t say. The report will be written in 24 hours, then delivered to the referring physician.
***
Turns out, it took 15 days. Complete nonsense.  Even then, it was only an assistant who delivered the results.
Yes, they found something, but it was not what I expected.
She seems completely unconcerned with the findings.
Really???
I’m not a pain wimp. I’ve broken an arm, shattered a wrist, but this pain was a 12 on the one to 10 scale, and the first in ever my life to cause me to consider dialing 911 or driving myself to the ER.

New doc, second opinion?

Friday, July 6, 2012

crazy, stupid...

...hot.
[I know. I've been busy. More about that later.]
Who ordered this nonsense?
We didn't have winter. No one complained about that so much, but some of us did wonder if the snow deficit was a sign of things to come.
We missed spring, too. 85°F and mowing in mid-March? What happened to snow during high school basketball playoff season?
And now? Triple digit temperatures. Daily.
Sometime during the 82 days I've been a boss, Indiana must've had an earthquake and the entire state slid south at least five hardiness zones and clear to the equator.
Our ozone exceeds the "federally mandated standards." I have to laugh. Did the government tell Mother Nature about its standards?

So there's plenty of crazy and stupid. Not just the weather, either.